sick and tired of all the nonsense in my life right now . . . i have no idea what is happening to me . . . my controls for all my emotions are haywired. i have totally no control over what i can feel. sadness comes right after happiness. confusing come right after resolvation. i totally do not know what to do. i am being overly short tempered. flaring over the tiniest bits of things. especially when i am by myself when no one is looking at me. i am being the highest level of jerks you could ever imagine. i just dont know . . . how someone can tlak for 2 hours consecativily and totally nothing when i talk. i dont get how sitting by myself and listening to music because i slept only 4 hours is called emoing. it is very obvious u dislike me. yes u. u know who you are. i am not forcing myself on anyone at all. which is why i am being a fucked uped jerked typing this now. hate me love me. i dont really care right now . . . to me its just another step in my life where nothing is as it seems. and what i thought isnt what that is real anymore. do not pity me. do not say i am being irrational or stupid. but i just got quite enough of bullshit going on in my life right now . . . and being humiliated and embarassed upteem times infront of the currently most significant person that is part of my life isnt at all cool or can be forgiven lightly. i will laugh i will smile i will joke, INFRONT of you. but the acts you have done you yourself know. i wont raddle on about ur jokes which you would soon tell me you didnt mean it. but that 1 day. its enough bullshit to piss me off for awhile now.

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♠Forever "16"♠...
♠Leo 11/8/92♠...
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getting my right leg all heal uped and play basketball...success
getting a better cpu...success
get good grades...success
getting a high end camera...
getting into my course which for Electronic Engineering...success
living life with out restrain...
get to ite with grade of b1r2 of <9 or b1r4 <15...success
personally shake hands with bill gates...
getting my own car by age of 20...
getting my own house by the age of 30...
live up to expectations...
drink good coffee all around the world...
travel every part of the world...
work my way to fame...
move on with life...sucess
find the right one...
Be happy forever

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